I don't want to lose a thing

I'm counting the days alrdy... I cnnt take it anymore, this sucky life. To know that there are ppl who get the same as u, but who get to slack while getting paid... It realli sucks. When I finally am free I am so going to take a break... Prob just take up a new hobby , meet new ppl and just change my life drastically.

For nw my past is still my present. Nth much diff. It fails that I'm in a song played on repeat mode. Doing the same thing over n over again. I need smth to inject life back into me.

Have I become a diff person the last yr... I don't think so... I think I need an extreme makeover... My behaviour has gotten the better of me at times. Too crazy for my own good.

Sometimes I stare at myself and ask my purpose in life. Everyone is imprinted with certain aims in life. But my path is still blocked, I don't see the gold at the end of the path, instead the endless forsakenroute.

I lost many things in life, but I gained many too... But I don want to leave this tipsy turbulence life. If II had e choice I would want them to be there forever. Bu I can't. I know there's always a expiry date when the glue that holds us all tgt weakens and I will lose them. I just want to have them forever....