..........mixture of stuff

I'll lock myself alone in a room

Drink until the clock strikes noon

With just a pen, a pill, and some paper

And maybe I will write a sad song

Or another cliche poem

Of the person that I long to be

i dont know why. but i cant stop listening to senses fail. thier songs represent my life now. its like they understand what i am goign through now. alesana used to be the music i turn to, but their lyrics were more about greek mythology/ love life while senses fail represent the struggles that buddy when through. i love irony of dying on your birthday. especially the chorus which is the one on top. its what i do everyday. next week life will be enriched for me. today its the same as yesterday, only differnece is the date, and that i have grown 1 year older.

im watching prison break season 4, and im quite sad that this will be the final season, while lost has yet to start and so has heroes. so for now. i shall turn to watching tv show. the last great movie i watch? borat. its just retarded, i dont know how the hell he acts like that. but his behaviour reminds me of the crazy cutter. lol.

im going on shopping spree tmr. i have to find clothes to work in. i cannot wear band t and skinny any more. have to be dress well. i hope they dont ask me to cut my hair. if they, then i may try some fancy haircuts ahah. i cannot imagine myself working, what more, im working with adults and not some teens, how do i relate to them??? its like j1 all over again. and i hated it when i compare to j2. lonely and no friends, i want it to be j2. its so fun.

well, i was bored yesteday so i went to read all the stuff people gave me in j2. i didnt know i had so many. from the letters due to my "problems regarding cheap trills" , to the comments by everyone, to christams cards and letters from my best friends. i look at the class photo, all of us were smilling. some of us had different jc life experience. and im just lucky i experience both extreme. i was barely existant in j1,. perhaps onli remembered for making crazy noises at the back, and i always pon class outing. then i went to jumbo. and then the monster in me was unleashed. ask kelvin. ahha. i went c razy at night, doign midnight taichi, banging on the roof singing we will rock u, and then scaring jegan like shit, smashing a coconut until it broke open, and throwing explosive stuff at people. its inevitable, that when i came back to school, i was diff, and u all saw it in j2. well. im happy. i feel bless to have experience it. when i look back next time, i will laugh at my jc life, certainly the best period of my life thus far.