long post for a boring day

i need a tune.. a simple tune that i can write lyrics on. one that will capture the audience. i tried it on acoustic and on piano but i jsut cant find that tune. i have the lyrics in my head. its going to be screamo. its going to big. real big. startign slow then buildign up. i been working on it for a month now. but i just cant get the tune rite? well. i physically exhausted now. my body aches. but i still have to continue running.

life is plain simple for me. 3 meals a day. wake up late every morn. running at 6 along with soccer until 8.30 . between them, i have no idea what i want to do. i want to read a book, but i think i now lost the patience of sitting down and reading a novel. i just been watching a lot of movies includign chick flicks liek john tucker must die and forgetting sarah mishell. well. lifes nth much for me. i miss sch. at least i wake upin the morning knowing that there are stuff for me to do.

signapore is too small. and there are so little man shops. i think like for every 50 girl shop there is 1 guy shop. it suxs. i need to buy a formal pants and shoes for working tmr alogn with shirts. i need to dress sharply cos im goign tostart working. im surprise too. i dont know what i would be doing, but at least i got smth to do while waitning to elist to army.

it suxs. my shoping buddy is in army and comes back onli next week. and the girls are working. while most of them. some are just enjoyign still. but i dont want to go alone with a girl, it will spread rumours. haha. and its hard. at least that day i spend itme with sock and joanna at far east, it was great catching up with them and gettign backmy twilight book.

and yesterday i work for 1 day. thnx sock. well. it was just seeing taxis passing by, and then workers pasting the advertisements on them, then i will take 4 photos of the taxis. but wad made the day eventful was all the complaingin by the taxi drivers. omg. they non stop nagging. lucky i dun understand hokkien, and my chinese also not v zhai. but at least i think i became more profluent , even if just 1%. haha

i miss mixing around with the whole gang. its hard now. and we barely see each other. hmm. last outing was bedtimes stories, and onli 4 ppl came, me , xinghow,darcie, joanna. hopefully one day we will have another gathering at someone house. but mines out of the question. cos u noe how restrictive my parents are. sian. well. chinsese new year is coming up. the army boys are coming out. hint hint. whose incharge of planning? i shall wait. haha. i dont want plan. im tired of it. but i soemhow know i willl be doign it, cos i dun want to be stoning on the outing.

finally. i want to go somewhere new. singapore is boring. i want go somewhere where i never been before. im changing every day. i becoming more older, and so more mature. and i noe its quite hard to beleive. but i believe that all my planning are helping me gain confidence so that in army i can be ready to be a leader. well. see how lah? for now. i shall listen screamo music, and scream till the sun sets. c ya. and love u all. ( both boys and girls...haha. without u guys and girls, i think i will find no meanning in life, cos its so boring.)